博客，是为哪种人创办的？
是开心的人？
恋爱中的人？
还是。。。
伤心的人？
有心事的人？
我想，或许，是给有心事但也不开心的人用的。。。
我其实已经不再需要博客了，因为我不再不开心，也不再有什么烦恼了。。。
但我想，我唯一的烦恼就是我的学业。。。
我会把我的心思分一半放在学业上，另一半呢？不会是男朋友。。。而是我学的其它才艺，还有课外活动。。。
我有想要转校，但转的目的不是因为玉鹏，而是我的前途。。。
我可以不再逃避他们两个了，我可以很坦然的面对他们而不再感到不舒服。。。
这证明了些什么呢？我想是证明了我已经彻底的放下他这个人，跟我们的这段情了。。。
我很开心，因为我不再骗我自己了，做回自己的感觉真的很好！
那。。。当我一转校我要做什么呢？
第一件事当然努力读我的书啦！
那第二件事呢？
找个有钱又帅的男朋友？
别傻了！自己找的永远都不会适合自己的。。。
幸福这种东西，真的好难得。。。但我相信，缘分到了自然会来的。。。
那言归正传，第二件事当然是参加我一直都想参加的社团。。。
我不要再做个默默无名的人了。。。
我要成绩好，又有才艺。。。哈哈！虽然有点难。。。但就听着先吧。。。
接下来我为自己安排了很多东西要学。。。例如：钢琴，网球，游泳，小提琴，画画，瑜伽还有舞蹈。。。
舞蹈我是想学国标，但应该不会那么快，因为也没那么多的时间。。。
那么我会先学钢琴，网球，游泳还有瑜伽。。。
因为钢琴之前已经学过了，所以打算继续钢琴先暂时放弃学小提琴先，但我有朝一日一定会学小提琴的。。。
网球呢？一直是我喜欢的球类运动，所以现在有机会了当然不会错过。。。
游泳？就觉得学了可减肥用，而且也没坏处。。。哈哈哈！
至于瑜伽嘛。。。是为我以后学国标做底用的，因为瑜伽能软骨。。。哈哈哈！
2010年3月12日星期五
I M Possible...
I believe that Nothing Is Impossible, but...maybe...that's really impossible for me...=(
I try my best already, I tell myself I need to change my character, and study hard to match you, but...I can't...Not because of I don't want...Is the days, the times, all the things are telling me that we are impossible...=( I'm not really have the confidence... Maybe yesterday night I got... I said although I just have the 0.001 chance I also want to try, and won't give up... But... Now I feel the 0 are persistence to plus inside the 0.001... A day pass a day, I really don't have confidence to stick it out of my mind... I really don't want to give up...but I scare it just my stupid thought!
But although how I worry, I still insist on my mind...
I want to change my character of course include my concede defeat's temperament...
I need to brace up! Never try it, won't know the consequence...
Cause... I M Possible...=]
I try my best already, I tell myself I need to change my character, and study hard to match you, but...I can't...Not because of I don't want...Is the days, the times, all the things are telling me that we are impossible...=( I'm not really have the confidence... Maybe yesterday night I got... I said although I just have the 0.001 chance I also want to try, and won't give up... But... Now I feel the 0 are persistence to plus inside the 0.001... A day pass a day, I really don't have confidence to stick it out of my mind... I really don't want to give up...but I scare it just my stupid thought!
But although how I worry, I still insist on my mind...
I want to change my character of course include my concede defeat's temperament...
I need to brace up! Never try it, won't know the consequence...
Cause... I M Possible...=]
2010年3月11日星期四
Nothing Is Imposibble...=]
I feel scary...
I scare my chooses are wrong...
I scare the all things are not like my imagine one...
I scare......cause I don't want lose it......
But I know got somethings are not control by us...
So...If really not like my imagine one, I will accept it...After all...I learn more things about the emotion...At least, I know how to 'put down' already...
Tonight, I got a flight...Is from Miri to KK...
And tomorrow got a flight to Taiwan from KK...
I don't know...I'm not really happy and excited...maybe...? maybe no maybe......just the time pass already... XD
When I still in the Singapore...
I got go the banquet with my relative and cousin...
That not only a banquet, it also got auction somethings like wine and some picture to some "boss"...And this activity is for help some students of a school, for tuition and breakfast...
For me...it's really very shock...waa...that boss really got many money and no place to use it le...hahahahaha~! They call $1000 like RM10...haiz...Of course the "boss" include my mother's brother...wuu...shock me that time...First time he call $1000 to buy a cheap wine...? Owhh....and after that, he call $ 2500??? Waaa....aiyoyo...but I don't have join them, hahahaha...I eat my food, cause one table need $2000 leh...so all of you know what food is it le bah?? Haahaha... But his wife not really can eat the food loh, she seeing my mother's brother the whole night...Hahaha!
And until finish, they got sell the singapore sweep...one envelope got 10 piece sell $88...==''' of course my mother's brother got buy one loh...and he give me one piece...Hahahaha!! it's my hope leh!! my dream car~ my dream phone~ my dream laptop~!! Owhh~ all are in the sweep there le...Hahahahz!! My mother's brother said...if attain le give he some, don't want go take the money alone...hahahaha~ Of course! The first prize is $ 2.2 million leh...hahahaha~ of course give him some lah...hahahahaa~ but the chance maybe just got 0.00000000001.... and I'm not a lucky person...haiz... so I tell renee if I attain le I will give her RM1000...Hahahaha!
After that, I back my big aunt's home and contact with my mum, I tell my mum her brother call $1000 for a cheap wine and my mum say he like his face lah...they cut him like a "water fish"...Ahahahahaha!!
I think my sweep is important leh, but why when I back my home nobody think it is important leh??? hahahahaha! maybe want attain really impossible...but..."nothing is impossible"...by bryan...hahahahaha! He always says this..."nothing is impossible.." ==''' Hahaha! maybe...cause I got 0.000000000001 chance is possible....=] Hahaha! maybe that day I'm lucky till attain...?
Then my dream car........."Vios sportivo"~~~Hahahaha!
That day we ( mother's brother, cousin, cousin's dad and I) watching the car...and I saw it...I sit inside and my mother's brother said I'm pretty when I sit inside the car, and cousin's dad said the car is match with me...Hahahaha! so how can I don't buy it if I attain...? Hahaha~! It's really nice~ I like it!
It draw date is Wednesday, 7 April 2010...Hahahaha~! Maybe...??? because it's near with my birthday mah....Hahahaha~! but if don't have I also won't how lah, I know the chance is very distant and indistinct...=] I know it just for fun...
I scare my chooses are wrong...
I scare the all things are not like my imagine one...
I scare......cause I don't want lose it......
But I know got somethings are not control by us...
So...If really not like my imagine one, I will accept it...After all...I learn more things about the emotion...At least, I know how to 'put down' already...
Tonight, I got a flight...Is from Miri to KK...
And tomorrow got a flight to Taiwan from KK...
I don't know...I'm not really happy and excited...maybe...? maybe no maybe......just the time pass already... XD
When I still in the Singapore...
I got go the banquet with my relative and cousin...
That not only a banquet, it also got auction somethings like wine and some picture to some "boss"...And this activity is for help some students of a school, for tuition and breakfast...
For me...it's really very shock...waa...that boss really got many money and no place to use it le...hahahahaha~! They call $1000 like RM10...haiz...Of course the "boss" include my mother's brother...wuu...shock me that time...First time he call $1000 to buy a cheap wine...? Owhh....and after that, he call $ 2500??? Waaa....aiyoyo...but I don't have join them, hahahaha...I eat my food, cause one table need $2000 leh...so all of you know what food is it le bah?? Haahaha... But his wife not really can eat the food loh, she seeing my mother's brother the whole night...Hahaha!
And until finish, they got sell the singapore sweep...one envelope got 10 piece sell $88...==''' of course my mother's brother got buy one loh...and he give me one piece...Hahahaha!! it's my hope leh!! my dream car~ my dream phone~ my dream laptop~!! Owhh~ all are in the sweep there le...Hahahahz!! My mother's brother said...if attain le give he some, don't want go take the money alone...hahahaha~ Of course! The first prize is $ 2.2 million leh...hahahaha~ of course give him some lah...hahahahaa~ but the chance maybe just got 0.00000000001.... and I'm not a lucky person...haiz... so I tell renee if I attain le I will give her RM1000...Hahahaha!
After that, I back my big aunt's home and contact with my mum, I tell my mum her brother call $1000 for a cheap wine and my mum say he like his face lah...they cut him like a "water fish"...Ahahahahaha!!
I think my sweep is important leh, but why when I back my home nobody think it is important leh??? hahahahaha! maybe want attain really impossible...but..."nothing is impossible"...by bryan...hahahahaha! He always says this..."nothing is impossible.." ==''' Hahaha! maybe...cause I got 0.000000000001 chance is possible....=] Hahaha! maybe that day I'm lucky till attain...?
Then my dream car........."Vios sportivo"~~~Hahahaha!
That day we ( mother's brother, cousin, cousin's dad and I) watching the car...and I saw it...I sit inside and my mother's brother said I'm pretty when I sit inside the car, and cousin's dad said the car is match with me...Hahahaha! so how can I don't buy it if I attain...? Hahaha~! It's really nice~ I like it!
It draw date is Wednesday, 7 April 2010...Hahahaha~! Maybe...??? because it's near with my birthday mah....Hahahaha~! but if don't have I also won't how lah, I know the chance is very distant and indistinct...=] I know it just for fun...
I believe and hope...
I'm back...but this time, the all things include this blog are without him already...
I have my new life, new hope and new target! =]
My new target?
Of course include the study, and a secret guy...
I think is him let me change my mind...
I'm not really hope now can be with him...cause I know I'm not match him...so I think maybe I can got some alter...
=] Actually...he is the first guy can alter me...
His one word is important for me...just need a word then can let me try to change my character already...so now i'm going to try to be a girl that requirement will match him one...
Really hope I can stick it out...!
Although that we are imposibble, but I still want to try it and won't regret...!
Although the chance is very distant and indistinct one...but I still believe I can if I can proof to all that I'm alter already and you see it and when I still got the 0.001 chance...I won't give up!
I have my new life, new hope and new target! =]
My new target?
Of course include the study, and a secret guy...
I think is him let me change my mind...
I'm not really hope now can be with him...cause I know I'm not match him...so I think maybe I can got some alter...
=] Actually...he is the first guy can alter me...
His one word is important for me...just need a word then can let me try to change my character already...so now i'm going to try to be a girl that requirement will match him one...
Really hope I can stick it out...!
Although that we are imposibble, but I still want to try it and won't regret...!
Although the chance is very distant and indistinct one...but I still believe I can if I can proof to all that I'm alter already and you see it and when I still got the 0.001 chance...I won't give up!
2010年2月26日星期五
谢谢你们。。。=]
今天跟很多人一起出百盛，算是为我践行了。。。
不知道我还会不会回来,现在我的感觉是要在那边读书，不回来了。。。
不过，今天我很开心。。。谢谢你们。。。=]
你们这样是会让我舍不得走的。。。=(
今天还让我无意中看到嘉雯的电话号码，因为我问过第三者真的那么好当吗？结果bryan就叫我问她，所以当我看到那个号码时我就有一股冲动要问她为什么要这样做，结果当下我就用了那个人的电话问她了。。。
我：为什么你要做第三者？
她：who r u?! me not bcm that type
（我都没有生气她生气个屁啊?!结果她的感叹号激怒了我!)
我：如果你不是那你为什么要做贼心虚?!是就是!!明明自己有男朋友了别人有女朋友了为什么不会懂得要保持距离?!!!不要在那边装可怜!!!
我：自己不会去配一副眼镜哈?!你拿了他的那他戴什么?!!shit you!!!!!不要以为那样说就代表你不是第三者!!!
结果她就没有回我了，我明白我的举动是幼稚的，但我真的很想知道，为什么她可以这样。。？
再说，如果她真的不是第三者又何必这么生气呢？是就认了吧。。。我知道，她一定会跟他说有人说她是第三者的，就算她没说，我也不介意让人知道我找过她。。。我的行为是幼稚了点，但我没做错。。。就算他因为我这样而讨厌我我也不后悔我骂过她。。。我说多一次，我没错。。。我只想知道答案。。。她是不是真的那么爱抢别人的男友？她这样抢真的是喜欢，还是喜欢赢的感觉？我不知道。。。也许，时间会证明一切。。。
明晚我就要走了。。。
而我的决定并不打算告诉他。。。
因为我已经决定了，不再跟他联络，跟他划清界限，让他去选择他所喜欢的。。。
至于我回不回来呢？暂时真的还不知道。。。。
我想，也许要到了新加坡才知道，因为心情是不一样的，心情不一样自然的想法也会不一样。。。
我真的很厌倦这里了，不是厌倦什么，是厌倦面对某些人。。。
我知道我这样是在逃避，但我就是这样。。。人生短短几十年，就让我逃避吧，也许我会过的更快乐呢？
如果有什么事想跟我讲也能send msg给我，我不会关掉我的电话的，所以你们要传达的东西我一定会看得到。。。若是我有什么要回你们我会在facebook回。。。而且你们send msg给我也不会多扣你们的钱哦，一如往常。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈~就这样吧。。。
不知道我还会不会回来,现在我的感觉是要在那边读书，不回来了。。。
不过，今天我很开心。。。谢谢你们。。。=]
你们这样是会让我舍不得走的。。。=(
今天还让我无意中看到嘉雯的电话号码，因为我问过第三者真的那么好当吗？结果bryan就叫我问她，所以当我看到那个号码时我就有一股冲动要问她为什么要这样做，结果当下我就用了那个人的电话问她了。。。
我：为什么你要做第三者？
她：who r u?! me not bcm that type
（我都没有生气她生气个屁啊?!结果她的感叹号激怒了我!)
我：如果你不是那你为什么要做贼心虚?!是就是!!明明自己有男朋友了别人有女朋友了为什么不会懂得要保持距离?!!!不要在那边装可怜!!!
我：自己不会去配一副眼镜哈?!你拿了他的那他戴什么?!!shit you!!!!!不要以为那样说就代表你不是第三者!!!
结果她就没有回我了，我明白我的举动是幼稚的，但我真的很想知道，为什么她可以这样。。？
再说，如果她真的不是第三者又何必这么生气呢？是就认了吧。。。我知道，她一定会跟他说有人说她是第三者的，就算她没说，我也不介意让人知道我找过她。。。我的行为是幼稚了点，但我没做错。。。就算他因为我这样而讨厌我我也不后悔我骂过她。。。我说多一次，我没错。。。我只想知道答案。。。她是不是真的那么爱抢别人的男友？她这样抢真的是喜欢，还是喜欢赢的感觉？我不知道。。。也许，时间会证明一切。。。
明晚我就要走了。。。
而我的决定并不打算告诉他。。。
因为我已经决定了，不再跟他联络，跟他划清界限，让他去选择他所喜欢的。。。
至于我回不回来呢？暂时真的还不知道。。。。
我想，也许要到了新加坡才知道，因为心情是不一样的，心情不一样自然的想法也会不一样。。。
我真的很厌倦这里了，不是厌倦什么，是厌倦面对某些人。。。
我知道我这样是在逃避，但我就是这样。。。人生短短几十年，就让我逃避吧，也许我会过的更快乐呢？
如果有什么事想跟我讲也能send msg给我，我不会关掉我的电话的，所以你们要传达的东西我一定会看得到。。。若是我有什么要回你们我会在facebook回。。。而且你们send msg给我也不会多扣你们的钱哦，一如往常。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈~就这样吧。。。
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